| Location | Chichester |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 3/1982 |
| Date of Death | 3/1982 |
| Visitors | 926 since 30/01/2007 |
| Creator |
christopher paul smith
24th march 1982
1 day
none
chichester
he would of had 3 more in the family but i had late micarriages.
he died premiture death. and chest infection and died 24 hours old to the min
happy birthday
hi babe . how you doing its another year and your birthday again. 27 you would be today. god you make me feel old. so what are the plans for today in heaven. do you have a party or something. well mummy is going to have a drink tonight to celebrate your short life that we had together. there is no one else but me who seemed to care about you. well darling dont forget tomorrow i want to come home to be with you and leave all this pain behined me. but im not so lucky. i just have to suffer. i want to know what i have done that was so wrong. well any way im missing you love mummy have a great dayxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
love
hi there love . how you doing. it is 26 years ago today since you were taken from me. and it is no easier. i never got the time to show you to any of my friends.or most of the family. i have no pictures of you either only in my heart. and no one can take them away from me.
i really wanted you christopher.i was so pleased to find out i was pregnant. and when you were born my darling little boy .my prayers were answered. all i ever wanted was one little boy and when i got you well. what can one say. i dont understand why you were taken so quick from me.weather it was for your saftey or you just did not like mummys and the family members if you know what i mean.
i am so glad that nana and veronica got to see you. im just sad they never got to hold you. aunty veronica was affected bad when she heard of your passing. i think i must be the only one who cant get over your death. well we know why that is . and thats cos you were mummys boy and no one elses. it seem like you were never born to most of them. but you were.
i know grandad did not want to he wanted me to abort you right from the start. he is a selfish man cruel man. im glad he never got to touch you. at least mummy held you. i know it was not for long when you were born. but i held you for ages when you died. but christopher theres still something i dont understand a bout your death, and that is i was with you most of the day and when i was beside you. you were safe and well. but then within half an hour of me being in bed, you started to struggle to fight for your life. i regret ever going to bed you might still be with me to day.
even the day staff were shocked to here that you had passed away. what happend love please tell mummy. so that i can lay you to rest proper.well my heart died the min you were taken from me .i find it hard to get though each day. i dont want to live no more i want to come home and be with you again. i dont want to kill my self as that would not be fair on family and friends if i were to comit suicide who knows. i might not come to your home. so i have to be brave. so just give god a nudge will you. i dont care how i am taken. weather ill be murdered hit and run i dont care. just ask god to get on with it. and stop taking me bit by bit. a leg here a leg there. i just want to be with you.
you know what my life is a front, i just want to cry my eyes out all the time. but people expect me to be bouncy and happy. let me assure you this is a front christopher. no one will ever make me happy again. even having children a round me is cruel in its self. but please understand . there is no one here for sam and the twins and i know you would be like mummy and want to help others. i dont think you would of had a selfish bones in your body.you know i wonder why i was never taken as a youngter, i was never loved just abused in many ways and i cant forget all that hurt either. i am fed up with living like this. i really am.
i am so deturbed by my life it is killing me in side.
i hope you like this song. it helps to to express your feelings big style. well you must be getting bored with mummy so i will close now . stay safe love. by the way did you have a good birthday yesterday.
happy birthday
happy birthday love how are you. are you having a great day. can t believe you would be 26 today. god you make me feel old. god took you for a reason maybe one day i will find out. when we meet again. love you for ever mummyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
love
hi babe how you doing ive been thinking a lot about you .all though i have a house full i still try to get my quite times with you. i love and miss you darlng, i hope all the mummys in heaven got nice pressies .well i want to let you know how much i love and miss you. love mummyxxxxxxxxxx
love
hi babe
mummy here , sorry i did not come and see you christmas day, but there were people in and out all day. i hated christmas without you. and having other people children and not you. i always light a candle sweet heart for you.please forgive me i cant stop loving you.love and best wishes mummy happy new year love mummy
love
hi love mummy here. well i dont know about your life but mummys is hectic. with sammy and the twins. have you found your self a nice lady friends. up there, you know you are lucky , if you wanted to get married god would perform your wedding. and you would have all the angels as bridesmaid and bride grooms what a lovely white wedding that would be. one a woman would die for. tc stay safe say hello to jesus for me love mummyxxxxxxxx
happy birthday
hi babe. how are you doing. we dont know how you celebrate your birthdays in heaven.but mummy wants to wish you a happy 25th birthday. i hope your not teaching god bad habbits by taking him down the pub and getting drunk.well i know there will be a big party in the angels gardens tonight. have you met any of my friends that have past this year like ruth ,barry,margret. i know ruth likes a good party send my love to all the little angels love mum and dad alan.
remembrance
there never was a truer english flower-
misty blue like a english spring
with hints of pink and lilac dappled in,
for years it clings to borders .
tenacious as john bull.
forget-me not is remembrance
of things that always are
of things that always are
true and unchanging
like the old church spice.
ron woollard
love mum
hi babe.
the crime on earth is getting worse. you great cus half sister was murdered on sunday. so she is coming to join you. so please keep your loving wings round her .and keep a loving eyes on her family at this sad time. love mummy
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